unfortunate… and now, to remain desolate…
this is what I have chosen,
even though I cling to the memory of the fire…
I am frozen…
the thoughts of your warmth,
are no longer enough,
since I can’t give my love to you,
I’ll live alone, i’ll sustain, and attempt to be tough.
I am weak.
I spread my arms to the sky.
The universe tells me what I already know,
I had you, now you’re gone, I must let go.
I feel that if i let go, I will surely lose control
yet holding on so tight, was just what kept me right
there’s nothing for me to do, except to continue loving you
however long you stay away, however vast and far away…
I miss you, and I miss myself when I was yours, and unafraid, and certain.
I cling to this hope as if it’s my only air supply.
Surely it is false, but for my survival I must comply.
I miss you.
I’m so, so sorry.
I’m proud of you…
Forever I’ll remain regretful of my impulsive choices, forever i’ll be embarrassed that I succumbed to the fear of losing you, forever I’ll wish I hadn’t sabotaged one of the rarest loves in the world.
Infinitely, I will love you. Infinitely, I will be yours.
Even if you are not mine, and this means nothing to you.
The soul is not where it lives, but where it loves.
Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose.
Fear is a natural reaction to moving closer to the truth.
I want to learn you.
I want to learn with you.
I want to learn from you
hold me until
this infinity ends,
when the next ones start,
each time I’ll choose you again,